With dialysis it is a known fact that life span is compromised. Even with transplant the quality of life can never be compared to something that is totally normal. And yes cadaver transplant don't last forever.
Being single, I always felt that it is not fair to the other person if I want to get married. But at times, one does feel the need for someone to share your sorrows, your joys. Someone who can understand what you are going through and be there even if just to listen to you.
There have been times when I did start liking someone, but I have restrained myself from communicating my feelings to the person as I felt that things wouldnt work out. Either there would be a rejection or acceptance. With my physical condition I might not be able to accept the reality (would be tough for me due to my fluctuating BP) as well as do justice to the other person.
Then how does one resolve this issue. This is the million dollar question.
Option 1 Communicate your feelings and risk deterioration of health and injustice to the person concerned.
Option 2 Live with the feeling and continue to hide my feelings which is not being fair to myself.
Either way it is being unfair to someone...either yourself or the loved one. Love had truly ended up being a four letter word.
Its a catch both ways
That's what I understand by Catch 22
(I have always settled for the second option. I dont mind being unfair to myself, but not to others...........)
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