Work the Pain Killer

Last night was horrible. I was not able to sleep a wink. There was this uneasy feeling. I was feeling restless. Too many thoughts flowing in my mind. There was a lot of pain in my abdomen. There was an aching pain in my lower back. I got up (not woke up). There was a lot of work piled up at work. There were deadlines to be met. There are a lot of business inquiries that have come in and I had a lot on my plate. I want at least 3-4 of them to get signed up. This was the best way in which I could prove my mettle as a strategist.

I had a shower (one of my friends makes a big deal of having a shower on Monday - weekend blues I guess). I was really not in a mood to have breakfast as I was feeling very low but I needed something to keep me going. It was going to be a long day.

I reached office very early. I made a list of things to do. Worked out the priorities and got to work.

Its quite amazing. I dont know where I get the energy from. When I am working.When I am trekking. I get so engrossed in the activity that I sort of forget that I am down with renal failure and that I am in pain.

I was able to complete most of the important work. And I suddenly realised that it was 9 p.m. I packed up, put on my radio, and set out for home.

Suddenly I realised that I had a huge pain in my lower back as well as the right side and also realised that the pain was really unbearable.

It was as if the pain had taken a break from creating discomfort for me!!!

Work had acted as a pain killer